Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Can i still continue hopin'? Dreamin'? Wishin'? Prayin'? Should I pursue the impossible? Until im really out of options then I'll give up.. I don't wanna give up so easily.. Until the world stops spinning, I'll always carry this bit of light in my heart.
For those of you who know what I'm really talking bout, its been more than 2 months, uptil now there's still no sign of any news in return though they did gave me a reply once. And thats all, well I can only think of 2 options, 1: The answer is no, 2: they're still processing my stuff cause they have people sendin' 'it' everyday and it really takes a super long time to review everything. Ok, I can always look on the bright side which is option number 2 or if i were to be really negative and loose faith, (which shows how much I trust God) I will look at option 1.
I'm sitting on the steps of my duplex,
askin' "Why did God choose to make my life so complex?"
So how? What do you all think? Well there's always a third option.. I've send 'it' again to another 'place' its just to secure what Im hopin' for. I can't imagine what life would be like doin somethin' that I really don't like. I seriously can't imagine myself in a high classed 'room' pickin' up different calls.. I just can't.. Its either this or I'd really rather enjoy the rest of my life in the clouds with God((: Because, It would be meaningless to live having no chance to try somethin' that I love..
I'm serious bout things when it comes to what im good at. Actually no one has ever heard the real me except my family. I think everyone would be rather shock to hear the real me.. haha.. give you all i hint.. even my inspiration sounds so different when she's on stage.. yeah I think I've said enough, now you all know roughly how I sound.. hey, Im not boasting or anything.. even I myself got a shock cause I had no idea I had it in me all along! I think everyone has the ability to acquire the skill I have, its whether you wanna use it and a matter of how ur gonna use it.. Cause I won't believe if you tell me you can't sing, unless your really mute then i'd believe..
MYE's over.. but i don't feel free at all.. there's something else on my mind.. the results and chinese 'o's.. I just don't feel free 1 bit, feels like I have another load on my shoulders.. and art is one hell of an example.. sigh -_-.. gosh.. I'm seriously tired.. I don't have energy..
Notice I've been talkin' bout celeb lives alot.. there's more celebs that i just came to know of.. and its freakin' scary.. 15 years old and they're already out there.. Selena Gomez and Demi Lovato.. they are really very pretty for a girl.. 1 sounds like a hot diva and the other is spankin' new on Disney Channel.. they both 'graduated' from Barney and friends.. entered Disney at the same time.. Im waitin' to see them crash and burn.. NO LA im not so mean.. I just wanna know in a few years down the road whether they can hang on like JoJo did or start doin' stupid things like those Disney bitches.. I just hope they do prove me wrong!
飞轮海 Fahrenheit - Heng Xing 恒星
翻滚吧! 蛋炒饭 Rolling Love
This song is great! I love this kind of ballet music((: OMG.. but this video can't hear aaron's voice.. must go find the longer version then can hear his voice! AHHH.. makin' me hear his voice *faints*.. gosh I can just drop dead on the floor... lol!!
Oh well.. this week and next week + next next week are my Doom'sweeks.. LOL.. don't know if that's even in English.. haha.. alright.. catch up with my blog the next time!
My Dream?/7:25 PM
