simplicity

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

I gotta bring myself up. pushing all the blame to my results is never gonna get me anywhere. Hah, like everyone says.. its just a damn piece of paper. It don't determine any thing. But somehow I felt that, that anything, is something real big. And it cost my confidence level. It really did have a huge impact on me.
Joyce spoke to me the other day. 'You have to aim! If not you'll never know what you want! And plan your time well also.' After she said that my mind completely blanked out. LIKE WHAT THE HECK IS 'AIM'? The word sounded extremely foreign to me. 'PLANNING' also sounded strange to me. I completely took out these 2 words in my own dictionary and misplaced it somewhere. Its like I needed someone or something to tell me the definition of these 2 words again.
Just yesterday after tuition I tried to aim.. then I thought 'how come i can't figure out what grade i want, or what is it that I want?' so i moved on to planning, 'what should i start with first? how am i gonna plan?' I can't figure out. sigh.. I just wish this year will pass very quickly, like in a blink of an eye so i can move on next year.

Everyone in my family comes home and tell me stuff like 'YOU STAY AT HOME ONE WHOLE DAY .. BLAH BLAH.' 'YOU STAY AT HOME ALL DAY AND DO NOTHING.. BLAH BLAH..' These words affect me very badly as I already know the reason why Im staying at home, trying to make full use of myself and now they're just saying things to add on and it meant something like im a total useless shit staying at home rotting. I try not to think like that as im kinda used to them saying bout me since school ended last year. But i dunno why these words affect me so deeply nowadays that it makes me wanna cry everytime they say it. I try not to be sensitive, but then again Im not strong enough to withstand these words. I dunno why i havent get over it yet but it really is hurting me badly.. I just can't help it. Everyone has moved on but im still stuck here in this crazy line.
I wanna let it out so badly, but who am I to share it with? I currently have got 2 tissue papers to call but I don't wanna bother them. Its not fair to always trouble them. So I spoke to sam this morning, I talk to her every morning infact.. She ignores me by sleeping on my lap after awhile -_-.. stupid rabbit. LOL but then after that I still feel the same becoz she's just a rabbit! How can she understand me? right? LOL

Selena Gomez and Nick Jonas are definitely hiding something from the press.. LOL!! they are a super cute couple! Ryan Seacrest interviewed them individually, asking them if they are in a relationship, Nick replys, 'well Selena is an amazing girl and anyone who dates her would be very lucky!' LOL then when Ryan interviews Selena on another day, she says, 'Well Nick is an amazing guy and anyone who's dating him would be very lucky!' LOL can you believe these 2 people? HAHA But they were really very smart which is really very cute.. haha! Well they don't wanna talk about it so oh well.. no one will force them to! YOU GO SELENA AND NICK!!

我愛黑澀會 yesterday calculated their life thingy.. well i don't exactly know what the was but you know Taiwan believe such stuff right? So Yeah.. somehow one part made 鬼鬼 cry.. DAMN SAD! Well the topic was guys becoming more lonely so they keep switching girlfriends. I think it says something like someone hurt 鬼鬼 before so thats why she broke into tears. Well i don't wanna assume who the guy is but I pretty much want to know who that guy is actually! who would hurt such a cute girl like 鬼鬼 la? Damn bad!
As for Yong Tu and Ah Ben.. that one is really too bad coz everyone knows bout this matter and they can't escape.. THE COMPANY RESTRICTS THEM FROM LIKING EACH OTHER IN THE SAME COMPANY!! Yah so thats why its such a big hoohah over Yong Tu and Ah Ben. Poor girls!!

我愛黑澀會男女星座大不同 II

OMG DON'T CRY ALR!! Poor girl!! I feel damn sad for her. Oh man.. I hope she's not talking bout THE PERSON THAT I LOOK UP TO!! No im not gonna say his name but its somewhat obvious who's the only 'he' i look up to the most. Oh gosh.. Im damn excited to know who!!! Its either him or maybe its someone else that I can think of but not many people thinks its him so I shall just keep quiet!!

Rihanna And Chris Brown back together!! OMG WHY?? If someone assaulted me like that I would've broke up with him a long time ago and never look back! Oh my but then again Love conquers it all.. Ima fan of rihanna, at the same time a fan of chris brown.. SUPER UPSET OF WHAT HAS HAPPENED LA!! Sigh.. but there's a pregnancy hoax going on.. WHATS GOING ON MAN??!!

ok im done ranting.. seriously im addicted to exercising lately.. BUT IM NOT LOSING ANY WEIGHT!! IM GAINING MUSCLES INSTEAD!!

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